I don't get paid enough to work for you

That little Sales guy who asked me to buy flavored creamer for our coffee the other week (who, by the way, has already been told "no" by the higher-ups) spent like 5 minutes today explaining to me what our part numbers mean and why it's important to type in the right version... as if I'm going to haphazardly type in CA-A2 instead of CB-A1 or CA-A1 or CB-A2. Why it was brought up at all, I have no idea. I simply handed him his copy of a PO that I was processing and told him I left a message for the customer to verify the shipping address, since there were two listed. That should've already shown him I'm very detail-oriented. Nonetheless, he explained the C as "Commercial grade" and the others to represent which spin and version of the chip we're making. I was actually interested until I realized he was just making sure I understood it's importance. I said, "if it's just a data entry issue, don't worry. I pay very close attention to the part numbers." But he said "mistakes have been made across the board" (he may have quoted the wrong number, customers may have typed the wrong number, but he had no example of my entering the wrong number). In fact, if there's a discrepancy, I leave the suffix blank until I can verify it with both Sales and Manufacturing.

Patronization, if you couldn't tell, is a big pet-pieve of mine and that's how I felt after our conversation. I'm the first to take blame for stuff that's even remotely my responsibility, but if you can't approach me with an actual error, don't talk to me as though I've made one.

Money can't buy happiness but it sure can finance the pursuit of it

We were invited to dinner last night at the home of one of the church elders, who happens to be a large investor in the company I work for. His single-story home was spread over quite a bit of land... they had a beautiful pool with waterfalls, and a tennis court out back. The purpose of the dinner (put together by a woman who looked like their home chef) was for the church staff and thier spouses to meet the new pastoral candidate. I was so excited to finally meet the guy, and even more excited to find him and his wife to be so friendly and sincere.

This was the first time many of the staff had seen my husband since his accident, so many of them were asking how he was doing and what exactly happened to him. He told the story a few times, but there is no visible injury and since he's been out of work for 3 weeks, I just get this sense that people think he's just lying around at home. I just want to say to these chaturbate people, "we can't afford to lay around. The doctor told him not to return to work yet." No matter what they think, I'd rather not risk a re-injury just to please them. Thankfully, my husband doesn't suffer from the same people-pleasing mentality that I do.

I couldn't put my finger on it until we drove home. I said to him, "everyone asked how you were, but it never seemed to dawn on them that this is a financial hardship too." They don't realize that we have put on hold many of the goals we had set: to buy a home, start a family, and even visit family in Alabama this Christmas. He said, "because they're all rich."

Learn to be patient

I went to the DMV this morning to get my license renewed, since the last two had been accepted through the mail. I don't know what it is about the DMV, but I always feel prettier than everyone in there, or at least as pretty. What I especially love are the jasmin live folks who know what they're doing and look confident despite their outward features. The information lady, in particular, had the eyes of an eagle and spoke so articulately that everyone knew she was among the most intelligent employees there. She lacked the usual traits that attract people like height and youth. Her long gray hair was loosely tied into a pony-tail and her face was plain and wrinkled.

Still, she had a glimmer in her eyes and was more patient than most people would be doing her job. She stood with her hands folded until she needed them to point out the instructions to an applicant. Even if someone thought they knew what they needed, she would find a nice way of letting them know how to acheive their goal without invalidating their original idea. She reminded me of a really helpful librarian or elementary school teacher. Yes, I waited in line long enough to feel like I know her... and I wasn't the only one. When a guy about five people behind me finally got up to see her, he said, "you seem to know everything... here's what I need" and she giggled humbly.

That's just it. I want to learn to be patient, kind and wise so that when I'm older and slightly lack-lustre, people will feel as though they can come to me for information. Maybe by then, I'll have made some effect on the world.

This is one toll I don't wanna pay

I've known that stress takes a toll on the body. I've watched it chip away at my mom and nearly kill my dad. But, I always thought that simply knowing this would give me a head start in fighting it. Just as we heard so frequently from the TV after school when we were , "knowing is half the battle".

Well, I think with all that's happened in the last 3 weeks, my body is starting to give in to it all. I was really only worried about my husband's long-term health and our situation for a day or maybe a week after his accident, I thought. Then, I was happy to see what's next for us. It was weird actually, to feel excited about an upcoming struggle. Thinking back on that, maybe I was over-compensating for the actual stress I was encountering. This week, I can't blame allergies or PMS for my physical ailments. I'm almost certain they are stress-related. The bummer is that I've truely given up on worry and uncertainty... but I must not have done it soon enough.

Notarial wording

If you have two originals of each of two letters that you need notarized, please let the Notary know. Here's what happened today: my boss comes up to me and says he wants his signature and the CEO's signature notarized on each of two letters and that he also has a second copy with original signatures. Usually, that second copy is for our office and the notarization of one original is adequate for the requesting party. I sat in the CEO's office with him and my boss, had them each sign across two lines in my jasminelive.online journal and had them make two thumbprints each, to reflect the notarization of two signatures each. So, there were a total of 4 signatures notarized.

Since neither document contained notarial wording, I asked which type of notarization is required by the requesting party. They told me an acknowledgement would be fine, so I showed them the attachment I would need to staple to the two documents. By this time, the CEO was in a hurry to get home (he's getting married and will be gone for two weeks) so he asked if there's anything else I needed to complete the process. I carefully looked over everything and it was ok to take the documents back to my desk to fill out the notarial wording, stamp and emboss them. Once I was finished, I placed the two notarized documents along with the two additional originals on my boss's chair.

About 10 minutes later, he comes up to my desk and says he intended to send both of the originals of both letters to the requesting party so that they could forward one to yet another party. I told him that I would be unable to notarize the CEO's signature in his absence. (To do so would make be personally liable in any dispute over the documents.) I did offer to notarize my boss's signature, but knew it woudn't be enough. He decided to call and see if one original would be acceptable... and he didn't appear to be upset with me since I told him what I heard him say originally. I do feel a little bummed, though, knowing that he needed this done today.

Californians love politics

I normally don't get involved in politics. Well, I've signed a few petitions in my college years (it's hard to avoid since they're on campus all the time) but only if I feel as informed as possible on the cause and truely stand behind it. I always vote, agonizing over each proposition on the ballot ahead of time, while ignoring the skepticism that voting doesn't really make a difference. And I try to catch the State of the Union Address among other Presidential speeches. Still, I've never been to a protest and I've never contributed money to a campaign.

This Gray Davis recall thing has gotten me all worked up, though. The guy's entire campaign surrounded education. He did a horrible job his first term, leaving our main electric company nearly bankrupt (we had countless outages purely to make up for the money that was spent elsewhere); but because people believe in education and hoped he would do all the things he said he would, they reinstated him for a second term. Not only has he not supported education, he has taken the jobs of many teachers and given raises to government officials. I'm all for raises, but not at the expense of somone else's vital position.

So, I had petitions mailed to me and have been circulating them at work, etc. Since my boss is behind it, he allowed me to post a sign in the breakroom just to let people know petitions are available if they're interested. Gray Davis, meanwhile, has spent close to 1 billion dollars to re-gain public support by holding dinner meetings at $5,000 a head, for example. That's 1 billion dollars he could've spent on education while simultaneously gaining our support.

What's impressive is just how many signatures we've gotten in a month: over 160,000. We need a total of 600,000 signatures by September, I think. Although Californians on the whole annoy me politically, I am encouraged by just how many folks are willing to stand up for their principles. Even if his term were to end next month, I'd push this cause just to make the guy realize he's failed. Governor Davis is getting nervous.

You want to have a company meeting at a Comedy Club?

I pitched an idea to my manager at our staff meeting today and he seems very interested!! I had previously forwarded the idea to the girl in HR since it would make more sense coming from her; but because she wasn't at the meeting, I decided to bring it up. There's a comedian, Don McMillan, who was an engineer (a chip designer, I think) in Silicon Valley for like 10 years. His show completely surrounds technical puns and jokes. I've seen him once years ago and he was very clean, very funny. The Improv in San Jose is offering half-price tickets and special Corporate Group offers to his shows. It will end up costing less than the time we took the company to see Star Wars... and a lot more fun than the time we went bowling. I hope it all works out!